I-U=Q

The healing process is not a linear graph. It is not a steady, predictable path. The healing process is more like a heart monitor. It goes up, down, or flat lines, but it continues to move forward.

Grief is a difficult thing to work through. Up until last year I never experienced any significant form of grief. On February 5th2018, I suffered the loss of my 18-year-old brother in my home fire. I had to adapt so quickly to not only the loss of a loved one, but the loss of my physical home. Since then, everyday feels like an internal conflict. One clinging to the ways of the past, resisting the change forced on me, while the other is attempting to move towards a positive future. Instead of hiding it, I decided to be honest about my feelings, but the only person who I wanted to be honest with was my brother. We started to have these one- sided conversations on topics ranging from our mother to my self-realizations. This work focuses on this battle and new discovered honesty within myself. This how I will figure out who I am without my brother. This is how I-U=Q.